As time goes on...

My sweet baby boy sure does love him some mama, and mama sure does love her some baby boy!

My how things have changed so much over the last few months.  Back in February the little man hardly said a word, and now I can’t believe some of the things he says or comes up with.  Almost everyday he catches me off guard with something.  And he has the cutest little voice, I love to hear him ask for something, and for him to say peas (please).  It puts the biggest smile on my face.

 

I just never thought my baby boy would grow up so fast.  Last year at this time, he still had baby features, and now he looks like a little boy.  I always get sentimental when I go through pictures, or clean out the closets.  I will sit in the middle of the room sometimes and cry, I’m sure it’s a combination of sadness and joy.  We are going to be going to the beach for our family vacation this year, and everyone is excited.  I was looking back at the first time we took the little man to the beach, and how little he was.  He had just learned to crawl.  It was such a wonderful time, going on our first family vacation.  But this will also be a first, with the little lady.

 my baby boy at a year old!  just too adorable, and still is!

The little man has been going to Bug Camp, and is having a blast.  He is making new friends, and doing what boys do, play with bugs.  He painted a beautiful butterfly last week, that we framed for him to give to sissy for her first birthday.  It was the perfect gift!

 

I was so excited about this gift...  Baby girl loves it!  And it looks great in her bedroom.

This little man of mine loves his sister...  He loves giving her hugs and kisses, and making sure she is okay.   He has also taught her how to get into everything, and then will turn around and tell on her, it's kinda funny at times...  And not only did the little man help out with the decorations and party favors for sissy's birthday, he also helped her open all her gifts.  He felt he needed to show her how it was done...  I have a feeling he is going to be very protective over his sissy.

 

I miss him so much when he isn’t here during the day, the house feels a little empty without him.  But he is having loads of fun, and I know at the end of the day this is good for him.  And as the day comes to a close, I get to spend it with him cuddled up on the couch, and I wouldn’t it any other way.

Goodnight sweet angels!

 

xoxo, Shanna

What's to come...

Sweet little girl of mine, she’s going to let it shine…  Sweet baby girl had her one year check-up today, and she weights a whole 19lbs and is 28.50” long!  The doctor told the husband the little girl’s weight has fallen off a little.  I don’t see how that is possible, she eats non-stop, or so it seems.  And don’t tell the husband, but we have been eating cupcakes everyday since the party, so that should have helped her some.  The girl is just like her mama when it comes to sweets.  I’m ready for the cupcakes to be gone, we have two left, and I bet by tomorrow morning, the little girl and I will have finished them off.  Who said a cupcake or two for breakfast wasn’t healthy!?!  Not me that’s for sure!

 

I felt so bad that I missed this appointment, I always try to make the good-well check-up appointments.  I get excited to see how much they have grown since the last visit, and the fun things that we get to look forward too, over the next few months.  But today, I had to keep the appointment I had for myself.  My poor Aunt & Uncle, they have been taking me to all my doctor appointments since after my surgery.  And the doctor appointments seem to keep getting longer and longer.  They were at my house today a little before noon, and we didn’t get back home this evening until after 6:00.  It was a very long afternoon, and very stressful.  I wish I knew what my future held for me, but then I don’t.  I don’t want to think about everything that is getting ready to happen, but yet I do.  It has now been confirmed by four doctors that I do have RSD, and now Fibromyalgia.  I had a lot of blood work done today, along with a lot of x-rays.  I’m being tested for Lupus, Ankylosing Spondylitis, and Rheumatoid Arthritis.  She knows I have something, but these three have a lot of the same symptoms, so we are going to have to leave it up to the blood work, and x-rays to determine which one I do have, so we can begin the treatment.  From the x-ray that was done before my surgery, I was told I had Lupus, that is what lead me to today's appointment.  She told me today that I had a long road ahead of me, that there wasn’t going to be a quick fix.  But the reality of it is, I will be dealing with this the rest of my life.  I just want to scream and cry, and throw myself to the floor like my daughter.  But I don’t think it will work for me, like it does her.  When I pick myself up, I’m going to still be faced with the same problems.

 

Yes, I'm talking about you!  

I’m trying to not let this take over my life, but this is all I have been able to think about.  Last week I was so busy getting every thing in place for my sweet baby girl’s party, I didn’t have time to be bothered with the reality of my life.  But the party is over, and I’m left with all of this to deal with.  I’ve had two major appointments back to back, and I haven’t had time to process everything from yesterday’s appointment, to get hit with another load today.

I know in the end everything is going to be okay…  As I noted a few weeks ago, I need to let the doctors do their jobs.  It’s just hard, but I’m sure as time goes on, I will find a way to deal with all of this.  I’m just a little (A LOT) scared!  As I’m sure anyone would be.  I feel like I keep getting hit by a semi, each time I visit the doctor’s office.

The kiddos are in bed, the husband is playing on the iPad, and I’m getting ready to try and get some sleep myself.  I’m hoping come tomorrow, I will be in a better place.

Goodnight sweet angels!

 

xoxo, Shanna

The big day...

The big day finally arrived, we celebrated and celebrated a little more…

 

My sweet little angel is now a year old!  It has been a long couple of days, getting everything ready for her big day, but it was perfect!  We were surrounded by family and friends, and I wouldn’t have had it any other way.

 

Nothing like getting to enjoy some yogurt to celebrate your 1st birthday!  Look how grown up she looks sitting in the chair next to daddy!

I’m still having a hard time with it already being a year since I brought my precious angel into this world, I just can’t get over how fast it has gone by this time around.  The last few nights I have held her a little tighter, given her a few more kisses, and have whispered non-stop into her ear!

 

My dear beautiful sweet precious daughter, I love you so much!  Your personality has really started to shine through the last month or so.  And I didn’t think it was possible for your smile to get any cuter, but it has.  I love watching you go up to your brother and give him a hug from behind.  There is no greater gift in my life, than you and your brother!  Your brother worked very hard helping mama & daddy, to get everything just right for your special day.

You are walking & running like the rest of us now, no more crawling.  And you are just as curious as your brother.  You two, are into everything.  Everything in our house has had a lock of some sort applied.  Between the two of you, nothing is safe.  And you want to be everywhere your brother is.  Most of the time he is okay with that, but sometimes he wants mama or daddy to himself.

 You have developed a love for food, you not only clean your plate, but everyone elses.  You love some rocky road ice cream, yogurt, and cake!  You tore up your birthday cake, and mama enjoyed watching every minute of it!  Just note, this will not happen every day, a total bummer I know, because mama loves cake, yogurt and rocky road ice cream too!

 

Sweet baby girl, Happy 1^st Birthday!  You are perfect in every way!  I know there is going to come a day where we might not agree or see eye to eye, but always know, you are my baby girl, and I will always love you!

Thank you sweet baby boy & girl, for the joy and happiness you bring me each and every day!  Thank you for showing and teaching mama what life is all about!  I truly wouldn’t have my life any other way, and I’m so grateful for the many blessing we have in our life!

Goodnight sweet angels!

xoxo, Shanna